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日曜日, 4月 30, 2006

Tired, but satisfied.

Ah... Just got back from the Ongaku and Cause-Play... so tiring, but so much fun.
The Cause-Play was really interesting, and we interacted with some kids while we were there. Myk and I went, Myk in place of Pat, and we kinda got confused in Times Square Plaza. I didn't have anyone's contact number!! that was stupid, i know. but we eventually met up with rin026, plush_angel14, arcueid_11 and another girl as well as Sephiroth and General. when we got there, i saw -alucard-, -schlei-, kuya Arjay, Christian, kuya Iruka and kuya Robert. hugz wasn't there yet, and kuya Sedney didn't come. sayang! i met kuya slyph there too... i met a bunch of new people there today. like kuya Kakashi. ^^;;
haha! it was a lot of fun...
i ate lunch with Christian, kuya Arjay and Mykhos kanina. ^^;; free lunch! wohooO!! had an interesting chat with Christian too... that was nice. the only thing that marred it was that Simon called. i never, ever want to hear from him again in my life. i was talking to Christian panaman! Panira talaga. i swear, one more time and he's getting a TRO. i told Christian about it, and he said simon was the type who wanted everything for himself. i have to agree... and he cared. o.O
but it was okay, since i still talked to christian afterwards. at sana di niya basahin to.
he does something to me, and i don't know what. he looks strangely like a Filipino version of Vic Zhou from F4. scary (pero gwapo).
Hugz kept teasing me!
kawawa si Hugz! heartbroken siya kay -alucard-!! may girlfriend na pala si alu, si scha-clyne! sayang!! kay Oreo nalang siya... pero masgwapo si Oreo na mahaba buhok.bagay sa kanya Sasuke. ^_^
hmm... what else?
i got videos on my camera ^^;; the skit was pretty funny, very amusing. Presea directed it. i liked it...
one of the cosplayers, Nikko, is transferring to Southville next year. Yey! 4 na kaming cosplayer!! or maybe 5 (sana kasama yung incoming 3rd year)... yeah!
the whole thing ended at 5:30 pm, and we cleaned up. Sumabay kami ni Myk kina kuya Arjay, Christian, Kakashi, Kuya Robert at Iruka. i was glad we did, because i did not want to walk back from Asilo to Times Square with only Mykhos. the place around scared me.
and then... Ongaku!!
the preparations were HELL. i did my make-up in the car, and then got dressed and fixed the wig with the help of Sofia and Marie in Greenhills bathroom. it must have been quite a sight.
i wasn't able to cosplay, though. sad, but i don't mind that much. i was able to wear my costume and show it off, and that's enough for me.
Neotaku is really good.
I met Yui.Demonia in the Ongaku, as well as Catherine and Akairo. very interesting... and i also met the girl from SISC. and then we watched the bands. neotaku was really good.
i don't think i'll be going to bars unless it was for these events. i want to go for the chance to meet people, which i did today. ^^;;
overall, today was really good. ^_^;;
haha, im really tired. good night, everyone! ^^
love,

Kanae

Kanae wrote alone 日曜日, 4月 30, 2006

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土曜日, 4月 29, 2006

Okay! Cause-Play then Ongaku Bukas!! Whohoooo!!

I can't wait... i'm so excited for the cause-play and ongaku tomorrow... it helps that hugz and -schlei- are gonna be there, as well as kuya arjay and christian. whee!! i think kuya sedney's going too.
too bad pat can't come. T_T but i hope she can come to the Ongaku. takas nanaman siya.
Marie, Mykhos are coming with me, and hopefully Pat. Ate Maiya and her group, then me, then Christian's L'arc group... akairo, ate catherine will be there too.
im really excited... i hope everything goes well tomorrow.
we're going to be baby-sitting kids in Asilo for the cause-play. ^^;; and then running around... then Ongaku! im so excited sobra!
mom's coming though. bad...
but oh well...
im sleepy!!! >.<
ack ill update later... night night! ^_^

Kanae

Kanae wrote alone 土曜日, 4月 29, 2006

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木曜日, 4月 27, 2006

Sumali na ako sa TIIS at SMALL.

I have just joined the TIIS and SMALL groups of Pinoycosplay. Now i am just hoping to be accepted.
TIIS- Tang Ina I'm Single
SMALL- Samahan ng mga Malamig ang Love Life
Yes, two singles groups. yeah, they make being single so much easier. people there are so nice too... i wonder if Hugz is there too... i know Schlei is in SMALL... Christian, i think, is in both... hmm... Pat will be in both soon... ^^;
I will go to the GYLC with bracelets: Proud to be SMALL, proud to be TIIS. haha... can't wait for them to ask what they mean...
i'm kinda nervous, especially with what i'm going to bring... kunais and chains, definitely out. NOO!! i cannot live without my chains!! this annoys me to pieces!!!
grr...
ooh ongaku!! and cause-play!! im so excited... i'm really so excited for it... i want to see some people too... weird. ^^;;
im so excited.
yeah... fun
talking to pat on the phone. la lang...
night, i'm tired

Kanae

Kanae wrote alone 木曜日, 4月 27, 2006

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水曜日, 4月 26, 2006

i want to watch Naruto!
Haku and Zabuza arc reply... that arc made me cry dammit! when haku died for zabuza...
ack my internet is crap, i swear...
so is my computer... i dropped it and now it's really slow.
hmm... got hugz's ym... keep surfing through wtf...
so much fun, the love teams. dapat EB ulit! manood ng Silent Hill! Iyak ako!!!
yuck i don't wanna go to school tomorrow. >.<

kanae

Kanae wrote alone 水曜日, 4月 26, 2006

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火曜日, 4月 25, 2006

chem class...
still boring, but at least Miss Luchie's a good teacher. I'm actually learning something from her. she likes to laugh a lot. weird.

Damn i'm sleepy... i overslept this morning; good thing i wasn't late.
I can't seem to login to wtfcosplayers.tk. How annoying... i want to see the pictures again! i want to see all the pics... i wanna see if kunebitt posted anthing i will kill her for.hay...

found Kuya Arjay's account in Photobucket... now must find the pics!
wish me luck

found the link to the pictures:

http://s48.photobucket.com/albums/f228/wtfcosplayers/2nd%20EB%20082206/


Kanae

Kanae wrote alone 火曜日, 4月 25, 2006

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chem class...
still boring, but at least Miss Luchie's a good teacher. I'm actually learning something from her. she likes to laugh a lot. weird.

Damn i'm sleepy... i overslept this morning; good thing i wasn't late.
I can't seem to login to wtfcosplayers.tk. How annoying... i want to see the pictures again! i want to see all the pics... i wanna see if kunebitt posted anthing i will kill her for.hay...

found Kuya Arjay's account in Photobucket... now must find the pics!
wish me luck

Kanae

Kanae wrote alone 火曜日, 4月 25, 2006

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月曜日, 4月 24, 2006

I have pics from the EB care of Kuya ARJay:

: http://s48.photobucket.com/albums/f228/wtfcosplayers/2nd%20EB%20082206/

so much fun... sobra!! ^_^
check em out! ^_^

Kanae wrote alone 月曜日, 4月 24, 2006

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日曜日, 4月 23, 2006

Haha I am so bored!!
Keep thinking of yesterday's EB, which was so much fun, by the way.
I'm reading the SMALL and TIIS threads of PC. I wanna join them, haha!! pero... hwag na lang. ^^
let's see... i keep thinking of the EB yesterday! it was sooo much fun! i never met that many people before in one day...
haha... can't wait for the next one. hope it's as fun...
i drew my prom picture with Chris last night for fun. it was weird... i drew myself fine... but then instead of Chris, the drawing looked like Christian. weirdness!!!
ahahaha!

Kuya just asked Sofia out. @_@
this will be interesting....
ja ne

Kanae

Kanae wrote alone 日曜日, 4月 23, 2006

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土曜日, 4月 22, 2006

Today was a lot of fun!
I went to SM Megamall with Mykhos, Sofia and Ken, and we met up with the other cosplayers, like Kuya ARJay, Kuya Sedney, Ate Nona (-schlei) and others... we were a big group, i guess, and i met other cosplayers while we were there too. Among them are:
1.Hugz
2.-schlei (Ate Nona)
3. Ate Carla (in charge of the Rozen Maiden group)
4. Mistress Kasumi (UMI of the PC Rayearth group)
5. Ate Hecate
6. egyptian_mau
7. Dycee
8. Kuya ARJay
9. Kuya Christian
10. Khiske
11. Kuya Sedney
13. -alucard-
Among others... i didn't catch the usernames/names of the others, sadly... but i hope to see them again. they were all a lot of fun, though Sof and I usually kept to ourselves with Mykhos and Ken. Ken kept getting lost!! that was funny! Kuya Arjay said to call Customer Service... haha... Hugz and Khiske kept mentioning it... haha!
hmm... we went around the mall alot.... supposed to watch a movie but it was kinda late so we went to the arcade instead!
i talked a lot to Khiske and Hugz... a bit to Sedney and Christian as well as Kuya ARJay... there were 2 girls whose name i didn't catch, but they were really nice. one was a mod, i think. ^_^
Christian looks like Hero Angeles. kawaii desu
Hugz apparently has a crush on Oreo? and everyone keeps teasing her about it. ^^ haha, if ever i get a crush in the forums, i will not tell about it. hehe... looks like i already have one, actually... T.T
i wonder when the pics of the EB will be uploaded... haha, i wanna check those out.
Oh and I got an offer today! I got an offer to do Sugintou of Rozen Maiden!! whee!! it's very pretty, and Ate Carla says it matches me daw so she requested that i do it. i'll just pay her for the costume. yey!! Rozen Maiden!! i can't wait!! the photoshoot is this May... Sugintou is the "incomplete" Rozen Maiden. Yey, this will be a lot of fun. Sofia is Barasushiro there...
It was funny, coz Ate Carla just approached me while we were waiting for the rest. she asked if we were cosplayers, and i answered yes, and we began to talk. She asked me if I knew Trinity Blood, and she recommended that i watch it, since it's bagay daw. ^^ when i showed interest in Rozen Maiden, she said which character i liked and i pointed to Sugintou's picture. then she said that they didn't have a cosplayer for Sugintou yet and asked me to do it. I agreed, remembering that mom liked that costume anyway. so i guess she'll agree? all i need are the contact lenses... but i can't wait to do it!! ^___^ im excited... this one i'll work for immediately. after that is Chiriko (i already cofirmed with -alucard- today) and then Fuu (i met mistress_kasumi today as well; they're expecting me.) so that completes my line-up this year. Wow! this'll be busy... hope i have enough money... ^_^
This year my line-up is:
April- Au Revoir Mana (Ongaku)
May- Sugintou (Photoshoot)
June- Au Revoir Mana (Toy Con)
July- *none yet*
August- *none--will be in the States*
September- *none yet*
October- Chiriko (Animax 06)
November- Fuu
December- *none yet*

Buti nalang my Mana is finished. ^_^
I will go with Mykhos to the ToyCon; I'll be Mana and he'll be Kozi.
Hmhm...
I sang today in front of Khiske and Christian. Christian has a good voice. ^^
But today was a lot of fun. forgot to get everyone's yms, though... sayang!!
they're going to Cause-Play!! this will be fun! I hope to see them then...
i have a problem with my costume though: how the hell i am i gonna get my make-up on for Ongaku!? oh dear... I'll just ask Ate Michelle to teach me.
I had a fun time today.
Night everyone! ^_^

Kanae

Kanae wrote alone 土曜日, 4月 22, 2006

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金曜日, 4月 21, 2006

Wheee!

Wheeee!! Went to Festival Mall today with Joan, Celine, Chynna, Ral and Kuya Anda. I met Ral and Kuya Anda today lang. They were a lot of fun, and we got along pretty well. ^^;
got lost in Festival though. I probably looked like a lost kid. haha! I was in my boots, my black skirt, black turtleneck with a white top over it, and of course my bonnet. so yeah, i looked like a little kid. We were supposed to meet in Starbucks, but i had no idea where it was, so i had to look for it myself. and then when i got there, i received a text from Joan saying they were in Ice Monster!! Bad trip!! i just came from there!!
but it was fun hanging around with them... played House of the Dead3!! Yeah!! im getting pretty okay with it...Shotguns!!
too bad Chris and Tim couldn't make it today. oh well, there's always next time... ^^;
tomorrow im off to Megamall to meet with Sofia and Mykhos and the rest of the WTFCosplayers crew. Sina Kuya ARJay and Sedney are there coz they're the people in WTF... whee...i'll meet them na!!
next week is the Cause-Play! I already asked Sephiroth if i could include the Cause-Play in my CAS, and he agreed. Yes!! additional CAS hours plus fun!! and then Ongaku!! oh yeah... fun on the 29th!
ugh, next week I have class, and i haven't found the book yet. I'll look for it tomorrow... or im dead with Mr.B.
Night

Kanae

Kanae wrote alone 金曜日, 4月 21, 2006

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水曜日, 4月 19, 2006

Strange Dreams...

Ah... today was pretty normal.
Went to watch Ice Age2 today... Scrat is so funny. Dude, it's a nut. get over it. LOL. ^^
I had a strange dream last night. i've had it before, only this time it was longer and included people i didn't know. It was really strange... there was a boy in it, and i've never seen this kid. i even drew him, from what i remember of him. of course it's animated, but put it to life... then it would probably look like him. still have to finish it though... the kid was a goth/rakista, from what i could make out. I have never seen him in my life, except for that dream... i wrote about it this morning/afternoon so i would remember.

"My dream last night was very strange. I've had that dream before... only this time, it was longer, and it involved a boy I've never met. I was running away from someone I couldn't see, and i was in a black formal dress. I ran and ran until i came to a crowded restroom where i could hide. Celine, Chynna, Joan and Eula were there too. they were running with me, but we got separated. I changed there, in an empty stall, to more comfortable running clothes. Strangely, Carlos, Julienne, Jessa, Carla Cabral and some of my batchmates were all there too.
"Anyway, I continued running away, through 2 Shell station shops until I came down until I reached some sort of park, with a fence in front of it. Sitting on a platform was a boy dressed in black. He was quite pale and had black hair. I found him to be cute, and it seemed that i knew him from before, for he said "hi," as i approached. He was listening to his iPod and i sat down next to him, and i had a sudden urge to hold him, though in reality, i knew not who he was. To my surprise, he looked at me, smiled, and began to sing. It was "Don't Say Goodbye, Say Goodnight," by Binocular. He looked like an anime character brought to life.

I don't wanna run beneath your tears
I don't wanna catche them when they're falling
but it's the same old song,
playing over... and over.
Now I try to see the truth
And though we try, I guess that's the way it's supposed to be...
Don't say goodbye, say goodnight
coz it's not over
and if we try to answer why
it's just over
it's goodbye...

"Strangely, I never even memorized that song. But it still played on as he sang it. I remember the dream vividly. I remember the sky was autumn-grey, an autumn dusk, as it seems.
"I don't even know why i had that dream... I don't know who that boy was. I don't know him... But i dreamt of him anyway.
"I wonder... could it be because I'm really lonely? Probably. That's why i dreamt of him again. Come to think of it, he looked similar to Kami-sama, only he was goth/rakista. I wish I could draw him. What comes to mind is Caleb/Cornelia from WITCH. ha, something like that.
"My important person-Chii.
"Maybe that's him?"

Come to think of it, it isn't the first time he appears in my dreams... ive seen him before but only in my sleep. i want to meet him in reality, i really do.
But for now, it seems that my dreams will have to do...
Good night, all...

Kanae

Kanae wrote alone 水曜日, 4月 19, 2006

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火曜日, 4月 18, 2006

I GOT WORD FROM THE GYLC!!
IM GOING TO NEW YORK!!

whoo!! im going to NYC this August!!
The GYLC is The Global Youth Leader's Conference. me and 360 other kids... sana may cute na Hapon dun... ^^
i'll be visiting my other cousins too... hmm... hope i can see Chibi-kun there too! ^^
yes!!! but im going to NY alone... scary... o.o
so yeah...
that's about it...
im going to NYC!!
i saw Marc and Russell yesterday. haven't seen them in a while... ^^
yesterday was good...
today's just starting...

Kanae wrote alone 火曜日, 4月 18, 2006

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日曜日, 4月 16, 2006

Chasing a Dream...

I'm here now watching CSI:NY while talking to Sofia and searching for Victorian Era stuff as well as cosplay. it's fun...
Mykhos and Sofia went home earlier today. we spent four days together... and it was a lot of fun. beach then Rockwell today.
I have been allowed to go to the Ongaku, but mom has to come with me. I want to meet Ate Maiya, Kurt, Kuya aRJay and all the rest... it's right after the Cause-Play so that will be a lot of fun. ^^ I'll be going with Sofia and Mykhos to the Ongaku... they'll try to get their Gackt and Kozi costumes done by then so we can go as a group at di na ako mag-isa nun. ^^
I will make cosplaying Mana-sama my career. All of his cotumes, i will aim to do and cosplay. All, including Moi dix Mois. difficutly, but it's Mana! i will do anything.
Which reminds me, my Toshiya Myaku. I have to get started on that one...
My cosplay line-up:
1. Mana Au Revoir
2. Chiriko of Fushigi Yuugi
3. Fuu of Magic Knight Rayearth
4. MakubeX of Get Backers
5. Mansairaku of Otogi Zoshi: the Legend of the Magatama
6. Toshiya Myaku
7. Raiha of Recca no Honoue
ha! ive got my new birthdate: March 31, 1706, which makes me... ack! 300 years old. I am probably the baby in group... Deacon hasn't decided yet, but Kunebitt was born during the 100-year war. haha... i feel so old... no wonder i do feel old. ^^ that was during the time of the French-English war, if my history serves me right. i was born during the Stuart Era of Englad, the 18th Century. This was the time when the House of Stuart ruled England, Scotland and Ireland. How interesting! I shall do more reading on the topic, surely. i do love the fashions of the time.
We're still trying to come up with a name for ourselves... it isn't as easy as it seems. Deacon and I were up until 2:30 this morning trying to piece together names while Kunebitt slept and dreamt about whoever that man was. It's quite difficult but we've decided that the language will be either French, English or Japanese, the most elegant languages, in our opinion.

our aim is to launch visual kei in the Philippines. Visual Kei with a touch of Pinoy style, and to create something totally original and totally us. Ala Malice Mizer and Dir en grey, but something of our own. I'm to be bassist.
I have never thought that i would actually be talking about making band or such. i always watched Nampu Kawamoto, Francis Sabili, Mark Sato and Mark Gimmo and Raf Eng and the rest do so, but i never thought i would actually be the one. Neither Deacon, Kunebitt or I could imagine so.
I think i like the name Cerise. Jade Cerise Alexandria.
Hmm... i must start designing my own clothes inspired by the Stuart/Victorian Era. I like kimonos too... hmm... my theme is be blue/black or lavender/black. I still have yet to decide. Well, costumes are to my own but my walking clothes will be a problem. I find the clothes of the 18th Century so cute and so elegant.
Hmmm...
Anyway, we went to Rockwell and played in the arcade. I sang in the Videoke because they have the Japanese songs I so love. Pity though, the lyrics of the songs were written in Japanese so the Mykhos and Sofia couldn't read it. I was able to, and so I sang the most. I sang a few songs, actually. Here's what i can remember:
1. Au Revoir by Malice Mizer
2. Verte Aile by Malice Mizer
3. Gekka no Yasokyoku by Malice Mizer
4. U+K by Gackt M.S. Camui
5. Yokan by Dir en grey
6. Sailing Day by Bump of Chicken
7. Tentai Kansoku by Bump of Chicken
8. 1/3 Junjou no Kanjou byt Siam Shade
9. Eyes on Me by Fei Wong (with Sofia)
10. Go!! by Flow (with Sofia)
It was a lot of fun, and it was only there that i noticed my voice is quite low. i can do male vocals or low female vocals. Mykhos can sing! He's just shy and lacks a bit of training. So does Sofia, but i'm confident in them.
I wish this will push through... It's our dream now, especially Mykhos. at the very least, i want to go to Japan to study with them. Haha, the three or four or even five of us in one apartment in Japan, studying college while doing our band stuff. In addition to the three of us, there's Ken and Marie. It will be so much fun... I know it will be hard but then, I'm sure it will be worth it in the end.
Kuya Tano from the beach knows about this and he warned us against crossing over to the mainstream pop scene. He says it will ruin us, and i have to agree with him. If ever we are to cross over to the main road, then we must find a producer who will let us be and let us create our own music.
I have to learn the bass, how to write lyrics, how to compose and how to arrange. Yes... I must learn much. This will be quite difficult.
Goals:
1. PASS THE IB
2. Learn to read, write and speak Japanese fluently
3. Get into a Japanese University
4. Get a job with the UN
5. learn to play bass
6. Make it big with the band

I hope to fulfill all of them.
Henry Kissinger is on TV. wow. i thought he was dead.
I am sleepy now... good night everyone.

Kanae

Kanae wrote alone 日曜日, 4月 16, 2006

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金曜日, 4月 14, 2006

I WANT TO WATCH EMMA!!!!

i want to watch Emma~ A Victorian Romance. it's cute, so sue me.
Mykhos watches it. o_o
we went to Backlass again today. jumped of twice. ^^
everyone went, and it was fun.
okay yeah. that's it. ^^

Kanae

Kanae wrote alone 金曜日, 4月 14, 2006

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木曜日, 4月 13, 2006

+_+

it is amazing what goes on behind the scenes in the realm of cosplay. may mga ligawan na pala, may mga... never mind. hirap i-explain. things you don't expect happen... it's like a totally new world. and i like it.
so it's late at night, and im here sittting with Sofia and Mykhos. im also chatting with some others from the forum while listening to Bump of Chicken. music trip.
interesting... went to backlass

OKAY. TANONG NI MYK: ANO ANG MAGIGING PANGALAN NG BANDA, IF EVER?

ano nga!?
di ko alam... pag-iisipan ko to... tuwing Chemistry!! ahahahaha!! may maggagawa na ako!! yes!
weirdness... today was good. ^^
I NEED LOAD.
night night

Kanae

Kanae wrote alone 木曜日, 4月 13, 2006

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I am at the beach. Sand, Sun, Surf and... INTERNET!

ahhh. im at the beach right now with Mykhos and Sofia. We picked up Mykhos at 12.00 midnight (kanina, actually)... haha, that was fun. i met his mom.
so anyway, we're here just lazing around while i use the wi-fi on my dad's laptop. i finished checking the forums a while ago, and i edited some posts about the Malice Mizer group. we (Mykhos, Sofia and I) have been doing quite a bit of planning for both Malice Mizer and Dir en grey groups, so we really hope it will push through okay. ahhh!! November panaman plano namin...
Mykhos has agreed to do Kozi for our group, so now we're missing Yu-ki. Hopefully he will be easier to find... I've persuaded him to go as Kozi for the Toy Con and I'll go as Mana. i'm also going to fix up my costume (add a bit ore flowers, clean a bit more, and work on my make-up and wig) because i plan to join the National Cosplay Competition. I know it will be hard to even get through to the top 100, but i want to. all in the name of my beloved idol, Mana-sama.
The Ate in Comic Alley found out about our cosplaying ventures and said she wants to see us in costume, especially me. that will be interesting: walk around Megamall in costume! Hey, Toy Con! that will be so much fun!
After we wil do the Dir en grey group... and we will parade around Megamall in costume too. that will be so fun!!
I was talking to Tim a while ago about Chris' requirements. Okay, i cannot help but worry about him, really. I can't. i hope he's finished with them so he can get his diploma and get into a good college like La Salle. i wouldn't mind him going to SFC, because, as much as we make fun of it, it is a pretty good school. we're just priveleged we can. haha...
but anyway, i really can't help but worry... i don't know.
i saw Marc midnight last night, but we weren't able to talk. i haven't seen him in a long while... i kinda miss him.
i can hear tito egay laughing outside. tita tin is here too. a lot of people are here, and i hope business picks up over this week.
i was dressed as my own female version of Luffy (what i like to call SNJ Luffy. Haha!) this morning: red blouse, maong skirt, slippers and bonnet. haha!! people were staring again. >.<
i swear, i only got into Luffy because of buriki_boy, who cosplays as him for the One Piece: Strawhat Pirates team. I like buriki_boy. Dalang-dala niya yung pagka-Luffy niya. He even looks like Luffy! so now, Sofia's teasing me "buriki girl." i just hope she doesn't say anything in the Ongaku while I'm Mana...=_=
I AM ALLOWED TO GO TO ONGAKU!!! basta im with Sofia and Mykhos. YES!!
i love my bonnet.
i love Shiroi, my teddy bear. ^^ my black teddy bear. haha!
Later,

Kanae

Kanae wrote alone 木曜日, 4月 13, 2006

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水曜日, 4月 12, 2006

we went to divisoria yesterday... i went with Mykhos and Sofia and we found some good cloth for our costumes. finally it will get under way...
i bought an umbrella/parasol and im going to get it customized. i also got a customized bonnet. it is black and white, and very cute. i wore it to Mega yesterday, along with my lolita outfit. i have recently been raiding mom's closet for Lolita stuffs. haha... cute.
sofia slept here last i night and we're going to Mega again today. Saya! i got called a witch there yesterday. HEY! I WAS WEARING BLACK AND WHITE!
oh well... fun...
see ya

Kanae wrote alone 水曜日, 4月 12, 2006

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月曜日, 4月 10, 2006

ahh forum surfing. so much fun!
i have made friends with ~Catherine(2)~ of PC. very interesting... she's a JRock VK fan too! we're planning a get-together of all JRock VK fans sometime, something like what they do in Yoyogi Park, Harajuku. that will be so much fun!!i can't wait.
let's see...
i came from nasugbu, batangas last night. i got a bad sunburn thanks to my brother. but it was a lot of fun. there was the other Anilao 7 of the IB and of course, my barkada, Sofia, Mykhos and Marie. Too bad Jansen and Ken weren't able to come. The Anilao 7 are : Chynna Velasco, Luke Eeles, Victor Tence, Hannah Villanueva, Jessa Jastrzemski, Byeong-Ha Park and myself. it was a lot of fun... the Anilao 7 only stayed for the day though; Marie, Sofia and Myk stayed overnight. Luke got tipsy and he was in denial!! that was soo funny! he could have been a glowstick!
i couldn't help but think of what-ifs, though. it really hurt. i thought of the previous week whenever i was alone so i made sure i could talk to someone else. i didn't want to remember it yet. not yet. i hope that things return to normal... or as close to normal as possible. i just wish...
ahhh im so excited about the JRock EB!! sana matuloy!

later
Kanae

Kanae wrote alone 月曜日, 4月 10, 2006

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金曜日, 4月 07, 2006

okay. graduation of the 4th year kanina.
surprise, suprise... i cried.
and i hugged him. yes i hugged him...
and then i cried.
ahh pain.
bittersweet moments...
when they were singing the batch song, i was tearing up. it was kinda sad...
and then... wala... started saying goodbye to them. i hugged my friends and said "see you later."
i know that one day we will see each other again.

music trip...
a while ago was New World and now it's Link, both by L'arc~en~Ciel.

Sofia, Mykhos and Marie are all here!
I have no time to get depressed... too much craziness. ^^
oh well...
Batangas bukas!!! ^_______________^
yeah... saya

See Ya.

HEY GRADUATES~!!
CONGRATULATIONS!! LOVE YOU GUYS!!

kanae

Kanae wrote alone 金曜日, 4月 07, 2006

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I feel better now.
Not a lot better, but better nonetheless.
i guess i'll just have hide behind a smile...
One more smile...

They're all leaving today.
It's their graduation, and then... goodbye.
Sayonara, minna-sama.
I'll miss all of them.

I had a talk with Poch this morning before our non-existant Math class. We were talking about wow, our love lives, which are actually non-existant. I told him about CG. He told me secrets. He said maybe what Abz said was true. Maybe...
We had another talk, Abz and I. I swear I so love her... Im gonna miss her a lot. What she told me killed me, I swear.
"PEROOOOO...ginawa nya toh kasi sbe nia pag mayGF daw sha gusto nia lagi shang nandun, naisip niya na mahirap. gusto ka niya TALAGAAAA kaya nga ayaw ka nya masaktan. natatakot lang sha bka hndi magwork out like ung past relationship niya. when he said he doesnt wanna be that guy na magbrbreak sa heart mo kasi he likes u a lot but he's just scared........"
Yeah it killed me.
It really hurts... but i can't let him see it. it would be awkward.
i'm still so worried about him! he hasn't done his hallmarks or his french... i want to talk to him like before. but would that be too much to ask? yeah. maybe.
but how i wish...
Poch threatened that if Mykhos or someone (boy) fights him, he's in trouble. i told him not to worry; di ako ganun.
i have to talk to him later about it.
Sims put this whole thing in her blog.
i miss her. ^^

Sofia is coming today!
and Mykhos!
and Marie!
I can't wait!
But i don't want grad...
but oh well. life, right?
good and the bads...

see ya later.

Kanae

Kanae wrote alone 金曜日, 4月 07, 2006

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木曜日, 4月 06, 2006

i don't know anymore.

ewan ko na!
i can't stop crying now. i hate crying!
it was over even before it started. i talked to abz kanina, and she was a big help.

he didn't want to continue because he didn't want to hurt me...
he's still the same...
he still doesn't realize that... it's okay for me to get hurt (as long as it's nothing major) because i know that if he ever hurt me, then it wouldn't be on purpose. hindi naman siya ganun. pero... hanggang ngayon, he still doesn't realize that it's okay for me to get hurt, but i don't want him to be the cause of my hurt or for me to be the cause of his hurt. i don't want to see him in pain.
he told me in 2nd year that he had a previous relationship and it hurt him really badly to the point that he didn't want to be in another relationship or he couldn't take any other realtionship seriously. when i found that out, i promised myself that i would never hurt him that way, even as a friend, and i would always try my best to be there for him. when we drifted apart in third year, it hurt. but i would always worry about him anyway... yeah, i know it's weird but that's how it was. i hate myself.
when i fall, i fall hard.
can't anyone catch me then!? nope...
guess not.
fresh round of tears.
he wanted to break off while it was still like and not yet love. if it were love, it would hurt so much more. i understand that...
but he doesn't realize that i don't like him... im in the stage between like and love. but that's not his fault. it's mine. i let myself go that far.
i hate myself for it.
fumi ended this way.
i promised myself that i would never, ever cry for a guy again. but here i am, crying yet again! and this time... for a long time... i hate this.
hey it's not his fault. i just hate myself so much for this.
abz asked me if i was mad.
i really don't know.
one part of me is
the other is just depressed
the other is still hurting
the other is just... thinking.
thinking... and thinking...
i don't know anymore.
but i just don't understand why he let me hope on... why he let me think that we had a chance... i hate that. i hate having a false hope to cling on. i really hate it. i've had too many times in my life like that.
i don't understand why he gave me his prom pictures either. i was looking at it, and the more i looked at it, the more i cried. it's so annoying... but at least, i guess i have something to remember him by. i'll miss him though.
thanks abz, for explaining.
~~~

i feel a lot better now. crying does help, doesn't it? amazing.
buti nalang. i should be fine by tomorrow.
i just hope i can talk to him again..
but i got to move along.

when all you gotta keep it strong
move along move along like i know ya do
and even when your hope is gone
move along move along just to make it through!

if only it were that easy...
It is so strange... My teddy bear, which Sofia and Marie gave me, has seen the start and the end. i wonder how many more there will be...

I love you my teddy bear.
Im fine now. i think.
Baliw na ako eh.

Kanae



Kanae wrote alone 木曜日, 4月 06, 2006

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水曜日, 4月 05, 2006

let's see... just had to add a little post here.
it seems a little girl named Cindy is annoying my friend, Abigail.
Well, my dear! it seems that you have a little problem? would you care to settle it?
calling my friend "Desperada" and "Self-Centered" is not going to get you anywhere. it's only going to get you entangled in a little web with me in it. never very pleasant, i can reassure you. it's never pleasant to mess with a Daywalker... especially at night. ^^
after all, calling her that is only making YOU look foolish. not Abigail. hate it to break it to you. ^^
oh wait. actually, i'm enjoying it. Sorry ^__^
yeah im mean. if you see me, you'll probably think im a weirdo. but oh well. i couldn't care less.
yes Abigail knows that she and Hyoj are most likely over. but then it's not her who's a slut, now is it? because, well, Abigail has the decency to watch her actions.
so please, stop calling her such names. after all, maybe it's you who has a problem. not her.
if you continue your little escapade there, you'll find me at the end of the line. me and my fangs. ^___^ im a daywalker, after all.
haha... im a dangerous person to cross paths with. don't mess with me, dearie... not unless you have an early death wish... ^^
if you want to deal with me, just tell me when and where, alright, dear? ^^

Kanae

Kanae wrote alone 水曜日, 4月 05, 2006

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today... i don't know.
i'm really not feeling well physically or emotionally.
i have a cold and i think it's brought about by the stress i have right now.
my batchmates are graduating in two days...

im gonna miss them so much...

i don't know what im going to do without them.
i don't know...
my friends...
him...
everyone...
i grew up with these guys.
i just know i'm going to cry when they leave.
and i don't know...
the whole ligawan thing. im confused. maybe im just new to the whole ligawan thing, but i would like to spend time with whoever is making me ligaw *ahem ahem*, especially since he's leaving in two days.
TWO DAYS.
that's not much time.
time is never enough, is it?
i always wish i had more time...
always
i want to talk to him but it always seems like im making the first move. his turn. ^^
even today... i hope tomorrow i can talk to him more...
and then on friday... ewan. iyakan!
i will miss them
some, more than others, but you know how it is.


our song plays on....


kanae

Kanae wrote alone 水曜日, 4月 05, 2006

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火曜日, 4月 04, 2006

i had a very boring day today...
chemistry was very, very boring. i didn't do any work.
and then...
visual arts was difficult. my art teacher's making me pain myself in my Mana costume. i would rather paint Gaara or something but noo... i have to paint myself.
i didn't see CG today... hmm... makes me miss him. >.<
i saw Tim and Raphee and Russell though... I miss talking to Raphee! She's so much fun. I owe Tim too... haha... he's very excited about me and CG... i had to remind him na ligawan palang kami; di pa kami "on." He's expecting we will be. i still have to talk to my dad about it; it's very tempting not to. but if i don't... todo praning ako. >.<
they're graduating on Friday!! i am happy and sad... happy because they've finally completed fourth year high school, and sad because it will be the last time we are all together. i will miss all of them, though some more than others. haha... you know who they are.
i joined a conference with some other cosplayers today... grabe bilis nila mag-type! sanay na siguro. i have maiya-hanazawa on my ym na, as well as rachelle_sakura. new people! ^^
i can't wait to start on my costume... i can't wait to perform...
i so want to go to Ongaku!! sobra... so annoying!!! i want to go so badly... and cosplay again... and meet new people again...
hayy...

Kanae

Kanae wrote alone 火曜日, 4月 04, 2006

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月曜日, 4月 03, 2006

interesting
oh today was interesting. very interesting.
may nanligaw sa akin O.o
yeah, CG asked permission if he could make me ligaw.
it was funny. i have never seen him at a loss for words... cute. ^^
I said yes, he can make me ligaw. I said yes because personally, YES. pwedeng pwede.
but i completely forgot about my parents!!!
i have an agreement with my parents that i cannot have a boyfriend until i am eighteen years old. noo!! i've had a crush on this guy since second year! i had resigned myself to the fact that he would never like me and then... AHHH~! so scared.
i have no idea how to tell my parents.
talking to mykhos, pat, chris and kisha right now. im talking to pat and mykhos about chris and other totally random stuff.
weirdness...
sobra.
my computer just got a new virus.
i will replace it soon before it continues to fail me.
and then...
problems...
Ah!
AMI Harasawa came to visit today!! had fun being with her... osashiburi da ne, Meo?
she reminds me of Ami in Puffy AmiYumi. Astig, grabe.
i miss her. she's leaving on wednesday coz school for her starts on Thursday. aww.
so anyway...
i have no idea how to tell this to my parents. i have no idea how to tell this to chris. i am so screwed...
i really don't want to hurt him, and i don't want to hurt myself or my parents either. i don't want to live with what-ifs again. all that pain again.
ahh...
i have to tell him tomorrow. it's not fair for him not to know that i can't have a bf until im 18.
i have to tell my father tonight. if not i am screwed.
i'm already screwed!
night all.>.<
but you know what...
i am kilig. and i am happy ^^

Kanae

Kanae wrote alone 月曜日, 4月 03, 2006

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