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水曜日, 11月 29, 2006

Today was funny.
we had our oral commentary trials today; i dont think i scored too well. oh dear... lol
anyway, Victor and I were over in a bit, followed by Kim and Chynna. Victor was soo bored that he came up with an absolutely genius idea: use Kim's soccer ball to play bowling with books. So that's what we did. We used books as pins and the ball. I got a strike! XD
after a while we got tired of doing that so Luke lifted Chynna and she started hanging off the water pipes. Victor started freaking out. It was so funny.
and then he had the idea to shoot the soccer ball into a cardboard box on it's side. I got it in again. Anyway, we kept laughing when Victor shot it too hard and it flew, hitting the glass! LOL
of course we all ducked and went to hide, pretending nothing had happened.
and you know what?
the librarians didnt do anything.
it was sooo funny.
history class was okay.
NO CLASS TOMORROW!! wohooooo!! XDDDDDDDD
see ya

Kanae

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Kanae wrote alone 水曜日, 11月 29, 2006

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火曜日, 11月 28, 2006

so we had a few conversations with some people today.
ive tried to wage war over at candy mag since ive got nothing better to do. its about emos and goths and why people bash us. hey, i take offense to that! im goth (ignore the skin please, im getting rid of it soon), and Khal's emo. there's nothing wrong with us!
...nothing that wrong with me...
anyway... so yeah.
and we had an interesting conversation with alex hannah victor and luke about rich partners. hannah is the rich girlfriend, olie is the rich boyfriend. thank God we're on the same economic scale. Alex went shopping, 10k in hand. daaaaamn, can i have that?
hannah had ONLY 5.5k. aww poor hannah.
jesus christ i would love for some of that money. lol. im joking. but seriously, its probably nice to have that much cash on hand to go shopping in Zara and Debenhams...
...although, id probably use that on CDs, gothloli stuff, cosplaying and random savings money. lol
good lord i havent spoken to Lisa in a while. i kinda miss her.
oh and tita leila and tita julie are going to 168 tomorrow. dammit!
i got my dante dress made; paid 500 dp for it. balance is still 250. pretty cheap if you think about it... o_O
oh and today the weirdest thing happened. i saw this boy who i thought was Khal. honestly, they looked alike. and then i did a double turn and realized the guy was korean. haha damn. that would be nice though, if it really was khal.
and had a talk with IB koreans. apparently they kinda envy IB2 since we're so close now. they think of our class as one unit; over there they're 2 units. korean and non-korean. that sucks. hopefully they all get closer, ne? ^_^
had a meeting with calado about our grades. recorded it so he cant worm away. lol.
im evil sometimes.
>:)
so yeah.
things are settling back to normal... and im really glad.
see ya guys

kanae

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Kanae wrote alone 火曜日, 11月 28, 2006

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Leaves shaking, let's follow
I'm staying here with you angel
till the fear dies, I won't let go...
-Last Look
Chicosci

yes, i was thinking of that song last night.
im very much relieved that we're okay now... to think i nearly lost him...
im glad that we can still continue together.
aishiterru, atashi no ouji~

kanae

Kanae wrote alone 火曜日, 11月 28, 2006

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月曜日, 11月 27, 2006

Let me get this straight. I am sane once more.
Okay so I AM upset, and in my opinion I do have right to be so. I did cry. He means a lot to me and I never find it easy when any sort of betrayal, even of the smallest kind, happens to me. im glad he told me though; if i found out through someone else i would be in a far worse state.

"atashi o mamoru shinjita." -Enma Ai

figure that out.
I was forced back by Chynna and Luke. Not of my will, but I guess it's alright.
I had a talk with Chris yesterday; its okay now. He isnt upset or anything; he said it was just a stroke of bad timing. Everyone has those, I guess. Anton always has bad timing with me and I dont really know why.
Back to the point.
It was really hard to keep it in... i started crying when i talked to pat. She immediately told me to go to my room so my mom wouldnt see me. i dunno; i guess i felt betrayed to a certain extent. i mean i had just seen him and given him his birthday/monthsary gift the same day. Malamang masakit pag napagisipan mo, diba?
I just want to know for sure that he wont do it again. if he does i WILL be very upset and I doubt I could stand it. I doubt Sunabi could stand it. she, Sage and I were talking last night. I was very touched. all they wanted, they said, was to not see me unhappy. I stopped crying and even felt a bit better, but my heart was still heavy. it became apparent when I tried to sleep.
I lay down at 9:30, slept at 10. woke up at 11-past, slept again. woke at 3, slept at 3:30. woke up at 6, and got up.
it still bothers me. I just want to know for sure that he loves me enough not to stray away. honestly.
i just want to know that.
if he loves someone else in the future... just let me go. i dont want to be a hinderance. and i dont want to be betrayed. i have too many scars from the past.
i love him too much.
but the next time... that will be the last straw.
when i leave im not coming back. no matter how much i love a person, when im betrayed enough times, that's it.

kanae

PS : Chicosci soundtrip helps. Oh, and I paint my nails black when Im upset. bad thing is though i was shaking so hard when i was painting my right nails that i nearly painted my whole upper finger black too. =_=

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Kanae wrote alone 月曜日, 11月 27, 2006

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日曜日, 11月 26, 2006

so ive decided that okay then.

Sunabi:
i am not joking when i mean that i will leave, kanae in tow.
all she wants is to know that you love her enough to NOT betray her.
and by her request, if you fall in love with someone else in the future... let her go. she doesnt want to hold you down and she doesnt want to ever be betrayed by someone she loves again.
its just that.
trust and betrayal.
that's what makes the world go round.

suna

Kanae wrote alone 日曜日, 11月 26, 2006

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inai desho.
dekinai.
kore o dekinai.
kono kusari ga ittai.

kanae

holding back my tears, its hard not to feel pain.
regret
confusion
past
misery
come back to me now, wont you?
all because of one stupid thing that happened.
i dont know.
im going to hide before i cry; i dont want to be seen and to have to explain.
Sage will be present for the time being.

Kanae

Sage
So I'm back.

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Kanae wrote alone 日曜日, 11月 26, 2006

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okay so my weekend was... interesting.
First was swimming after school. It's kinda strange coz we went swimming with Juniors. they're okay but it's still strange. we were with Alec, Korps, Kenya, Jason, LA and Satoki. Satoki comes from Osaka!!! waaaah Osaka!!
anyway yeah it was a lot of fun. I went to school dressed Mello-style, and Isel recognized me. mainly coz I had a blonde wig on, probably. Im really happy with that.
so yeah.
yesterday was the WTF and miniCK EB. I saw kuya Yui, Christian, CATHERINE, Ate Noey and Ryan as well as VJ.
of course I saw the WTF gang too... and it was really nice seeing Khal again. *poke*
we were poking each other for a full 2 hours. I have no idea why. but yeah. who ever pokes the other most wins. LOL.
*poke*
i hope he likes the bag I gave him... ^^;;
Oh Chris' birthday today. Happy birthday, Chris!!
Oh I had turkey last night at Victor's. ang yameh!! saw Reis (?) again and saw Luke, Hannah and Mara. So fun.
so there was my weekend.
have fun.

Kanae

Kanae wrote alone 日曜日, 11月 26, 2006

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木曜日, 11月 23, 2006

so sunabi is out again.
i am sick of christian music. i dont care if its all holy and shit. i dont give a damn. i am pissed off; i hear it EVERY SINGLE DAY. it is painful already. i burn.
i dont give a hoot.
ARGH SHIT
Dante cosplay in 2 weeks. where the FUCK do i get my money!??! and then i have the Lil Jester in January and that's going to be at least 2k. and then Vanitea and Jigoku Shoujo in Feb or so. SHIT la ako PERA!!!!
ARGH piss off world.
-Sunabi

Kanae wrote alone 木曜日, 11月 23, 2006

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火曜日, 11月 21, 2006

so today is the first time ive blogged in... a week? damn, it feels like forever.
for some strange reason i feel like i need to blog.
so i stole luke's computer... and his communication with Karina. aww i feel bad...
oh well.
this is victor's equation:

Luke: Karina+Distance= Luke-Karina ---> Karina-Distance= Luke-Karina

its very illogical, isnt it?
LOL

obviously im in school and im very very bored. also, i am in my Maria Tachibana costume, which i first wore last Saturday.
Last Saturday was the Hero Con and im still pretty exhausted. i was so pissed coz my costume took forever to make and it wasnt that good. craap.
I also met Raphael, the Wrath cosplayer and my groupmate for the UP Ame Matsuri. he is sooo cute!! bagay sa kanya yung Wrath eh. he's 14 and calls me ate. lols
so yeah, Hero was fun; i couldnt hang around with Khal too much though since he had to prepare. ^^;; sayang.
oh and people thought i was a guy. o_O weird. even sir Aligs thought i was a guy. ahahahaaaa

ive got my stuff planned out; Mr. Ramirez wants to give me a 7!!!! YES!!! kahit na 1 7 lang... okay na ako dun! and i got 4 na in chemistry.... sana maka-5 lang ako sa Math. i just need everything to be done na.
oh crap math teacher.
dammit.
anyway not much happened apart from that. im just really happy with my Maria so it makes up for all the shit that made up my week.
see ya

Kanae

Kanae wrote alone 火曜日, 11月 21, 2006

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月曜日, 11月 13, 2006

The Death of Angels

Silent black roses stare at the moon
From the lost garden of heaven on Earth
Sweet Eden, where does destruction loom?
This chaos we’ve waited for since birth

Angels, sweet loves, they gather in the mist
With wings of raven black and ashen grey
Fear in their eyes, afraid of fate’s twist
And yet still silent, with nothing to say

Eerie silence prevails through the clearing
A muffled sense of foreboding and dread
Suffocating, torturous, an unbearable feeling
It is enough to feel life’s remaining thread

Suddenly the sky turns into a dark black
The moon becomes a deathly pale sphere
The Earth shakes, the ground begins to crack
And all the angels fly away in fear

But time runs out, the world turns bleak
And blood of the angels stain the moon red
Melancholic voices cry out, ‘tis heaven they seek
This paradise was last before they were dead

Tears rain down from jeweled eyes
Sweet voices cry out to merciless skies
“We too are angels, sweet and wise
Why must this be our unholy demise?”

Yet no answer comes, and a bloody silence reigns
And one by one the beautiful voices fade away
Angel’s blood darkens the ground that remains
With blood of fallen angels that have gone astray

And so it is finished, this sorrowful deed
The murder of stained angels in the garden of Eden
As the pure angels mourn the loss of their kin
And it is for the fallen that this song is written


*written this morning; i was feeling very murderous.*

Kanae wrote alone 月曜日, 11月 13, 2006

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okay so ive had no rest over the weekend, but im pretty okay. i just fell asleep during the TOK and history classes, but im fiine. lol

i have to admit MUNA was a lot of fun in the end. i saw Marice again; she was the Environment Chair this time. my resolution passed!! Main Submitter was Daniel of Saudi Arabia, but i wrote the resolution. i just told him to be the main coz i didnt want to speak in front.
and again, there were some really interesting notes being passed around...
"DSG you're so hot and sexy mmmmm"
LOL.
israel was funny too... especially when she called for Iran to be bombed to make way for a new Middle Eastern Disneyland. AHAHAHA
Iran then called for the whole Islamic world to bomb the hell out of Israel. faneh
oh Felix got voted most Entertaining Delegate. XD good for you, Felix.

Victor won best debater for Human Rights and Hannah won best debater for Political commitee. wow they make a pretty powerful team o_o
heh, i think Victor and I could make a good team;I do the writing he does the talking. that's what happened Saturday. LOL

so im really tired but im glad i went. MY RESOLUTION PASSED TO THE UN!! wohooooo!! happy!

XD

oh my monthsary is on saturday! i cant wait!

<3
Kanae

Kanae wrote alone 月曜日, 11月 13, 2006

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水曜日, 11月 08, 2006

yes, today is Khal's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
i wonder how many times i've greeted him... maybe 5? lolz
thanks for everything love ^_^

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ive been stressed lately but im slowly getting the hang of everything. things are piling up; i doubt ill sleep much this month. but i'll get through it... eventually. lolz
wish me luck

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finished with the stuff for sponsorships, sana naman may kumagat!! *prays hard*
Ate Sha tulungan niyo po kami!

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lapit na 2nd monthsary namin!! excited XD
love you~


Kanae

Kanae wrote alone 水曜日, 11月 08, 2006

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火曜日, 11月 07, 2006

so yes im back in school after our extreeeeeeemely short sembreak. im stressed and annoyed.
i just finished my resolution for the MUNA thank God. the MUNA's taking place saturday; i think the busy-ness of Pat and I is starting to irritate ate Lu:na. sorry ate T_T school work kasi; high school at graduating pa naman kami...
i really want to help out with Vanitea. shiet.
>_<
not a very good week so far.
Khal's birthday tomorrow!! <3 XD


Kanae

Kanae wrote alone 火曜日, 11月 07, 2006

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日曜日, 11月 05, 2006

okay.
i feel useless and stupid. hence the title.
i cant do anything for the event because ALL my homeworks have piled up, and they all have to be submitted. the event is on the 21st of december and yet i cant even help out because of my schoolwork.
something always comes up. tuloy, wala.
next week nga di ako pwede punyetang MUNA kasi eh.
i feel freaking useless.
scratch that.
i AM useless.
sorry ate Lu:na.

Kanae

Kanae wrote alone 日曜日, 11月 05, 2006

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金曜日, 11月 03, 2006

today was... interesting.
met up with khal for lunch; our first "date" i guess. XD i had fun.
freaky thing was, it was arranged by my mother. LOL. but they met, and my mom approves of him. thank goodness!
im currently obsessing over Jigoku Shoujo (in particular Enma Ai and Ichimoku Ren XD). i kinda want to be enma ai sometimes... she's interesting, and her life is so peaceful. tranquility is disturbed only by the idiot humans. strange as it may sound, it holds an appeal for me.
well... my mother and i talked about my future...
nothing is as sure as it seems.


kanae

Kanae wrote alone 金曜日, 11月 03, 2006

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