in the midst of my solitude

火曜日, 2月 13, 2007

moving to LJ. im tamad eh.

http://kanae-harlenn.livejournal.coem

see ya.

Kanae

Kanae wrote alone 火曜日, 2月 13, 2007

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日曜日, 2月 11, 2007

its over.
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Kanae.

Kanae wrote alone 日曜日, 2月 11, 2007

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土曜日, 2月 03, 2007

Yes, Chicosci concert hangover in progress.
Dying of absolute insanity and kilig-ness(?)
Why? Because Miggy Chavez, lead singer, was about two feet away from me in all his gothic-looking glory. Surrounded by multi-colored lights, he could have passed as an angel fallen from heaven, or a demon climbing up from hell. A really hot-looking demon, at that.
It took forever for their turn to come, but it paid off. Six songs, and an absolutely charming Chicosci. It was funny since we were all in chairs until the band that performed before them. Me, being as impatient as I am, paid no heed to them... I heard them on the radio once but since the guy kept screaming and acting like he was being paralyzed, I tuned out and started praying for Chicosci. It was 11, and I had to go home, dammit! And suddenly, the emcee announces who is up next, and I go straight to the front of the line and straight onto heaven...
There was a total of seven bands. I watched six, the last of whom being Chicosci. They were all I was waiting for. I would have stayed to watch Urbandub, however, time was pressing and I neaded to leave. The band were Papi *something* (I dont know them-- seniors band), Kim Flores (pride and glory of SISC), OneInCH (Christian rock band from ENY-- they were good), MYMP, Kinky Hooters, *the band I didn't like too much*, Chicosci and Urbandub.Now, me being my usual weird self, I do not remember much of the previous performances. All I remember is Kim Flores singing a Beyoncee Knowles song ("to the left, to the left..."?), the Seniors band being... mmm lets not go there, OneInCH and Michael, MYMP's Tell Me Where It Hurts, Kinky Hooters being cool and everything about Chicosci. :D and now I will talk about... Chicosci.
In a fangirly, dreamy way which so uncharacteristically not me, but I don't really care. Miggy Chavez <3
So first of all, I nearly get killed by Jessica Ryon, who is moshing next to me. I tell her, laughing, to keep the remnants of her sanity. The band comes on stage, we all scream. Miggy Chavez comes out, and it's all like a dream.
He says hello, we scream.
Jessica screams "I LOVE YOU MIGGY!!" and he replies with a sly smile and a "I love you too. haha"XDD
Their first song is from their Icarus album, Theme From Conversations With Fire.
I sing my heart out. Jessica looks at me like I'm insane for knowing the damn song.
He talks a bit, and that's where my heaven starts.
I'm standing there, with my cellphone, snapping pictures.
Me: "Miggy, you're awesome."
He smiles, goes on talking. Doubt he heard me over Jessica's "I LOVE YOU!!!"
Miggy: "Who here has our newest album?"
Me: *raises hand* "I do! I've got three of your albums, actually" X3
Miggy: *points at me* You do? Great, love you then! By the way, I love your outfit." *smiles*
Me: "Why, thank you Miggy. *smiles*
Jessica: "sheeeeeeeeeeeeeeet!!!"

And then, as he sings Paris, he comes down from the stage, and I grab hold of his hand.
He goes around, then comes back, stepping under the railing right next to me. Me, being the idiot I am... I hug him.
OMG I JUST HUGGED MIGGY CHAVEZ!!! *screams*

yes, insane.I am proud to say that I memorised every song that they sang.

Theme from Conversations with Fire- Icarus album
the devil made me do it.- Chicosci
seven black roses- Chicosci
A Promise- Chicosci
Paris- Methods of Breathing

If I could request a song, I would ask for either Rolento (Methods of Breathing), Chicosci Vampire Social Club, Sweet Maria, Matinee, Knives or Last Look (all from Chicosci). Those are my favorites. All of the songs in their latest album are wonderful.

Miggy: "Here is a song to all the Miggy-lovers out there." *laughs hard*
me: "hell yeah, love you Miggy!!"
Luke: "JO!!"
Me: "You know we love you Miggy. You're loved. <3"

When I hugged him, shit.
*OMG IM HUGGING MIGGY CHAVEZ!!!!!*
Just touching his arm made me go insane.
Yes, I am a huge fangirl of Miggy.

Miggy: "If you have a myspace, add us up at www.myspace.com/chicoscikills."
Jessica: "They have a myspace? Ano yung address ulit??"
Me: www.myspace.com/chicoscikills. Meron rin silang friendster at yahoogroup.
Jessica: "Oh my God, insane. Obssessed ka nanaman!"
Me: "Jess, crush ko yang si Miggy 2 taon na. Nuon pa akong obssessed" *laughs*
Jessica: "tanginang fangirl!"

Me: "Hey Miggy, can I talk to you after the concert?"
Miggy: "Hm, who said that? Who wants to talk to me?"
Me: *raises hand* "I've got something to tell you."
Miggy: *smiles*

*before A Promise*
Miggy: "This goes out to all our vampires out there!"
Me: "honorably your vampire, Mr. Chavez."
Jessica: "WTF?"

Ahh good times.

Well, I do go insane in his presence. Surprisingly, I didn't feel starstruck. I dunno, I felt normal, almost. Except for the fact it's a guy I've had a crush on for two years... or more. Since the Good Charlotte concert back in Third Year. That was the first time I saw Chicosci perform. I loved them immediately. Paris.

I wasn't able to talk to him though. I gave the invitation to Rain and LA to give to the manager, though, so I hope it gets to them.I'll pm them over myspace or friendster. I put in my email address and my cell number though, just in case. Lord, pleaaase?

ZOMG. I HUGGED MIGGY CHAVEZ!!!! *dies*

I have about 7 pictures of him in my phone. All blurry, but he still looks like the gothic angel that haunts my dreams. <3

But still. Tonight was wonderful.
Thank you Chicosci and your lovely concert.
It was worth the five-hour wait.<3

Kanae

Kanae wrote alone 土曜日, 2月 03, 2007

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木曜日, 2月 01, 2007

Something I came up with cuz i was bored.

A Dying Melody

Pen me a melody, sing me a song
send me to a world where i truly belong
in this garden where life is sweet
fake smiles tell me that life is bleak

A sudden wish from the depths of the heart
A pale face that hides a heart that is marred
A decieving smile, sweet eyes that lie
Irresistible charm, a soft sounding sigh

Ruby lips, pearl white teeth sink
fangs of a vampire ready to drink
blood from my neck, it flows so gently
Just like a song's ever-sweet melody

An escape from reality into trance
A game of cards played off by chance
A strange dream, a heartbeat ceased
A sudden revival, a life that is leased

A masquerade, a dance of light
Balls made under the cover of night
Smiling faces, beauty unsurpassed
The faces of those with a bloodied past

Ages eternal, a walk through life
A sad existence dependent on strife
It is your blood I want, it is blood I need
An unforgiveable sin, an evil deed

O sweet melody, what an evil turn!
Thy bittersweet words makes my heart mourn
Notes that wring my heart in despair
Come ever so often: a repeating nightmare

There is no escape, what is done is done
in this waking dream i have nowhere to run
End this eternal melody, silence the words that sound
Save me from the destruction that will abound

For I am tired of living, if this is still so
All the goods and evils, I have come to know
Give me peace; lay me down to rest
Let them know that I have passed the test

A wish for death, a wish for life given
Mortality, immortality, power-driven
heed not foolish whispers of greed
Else you be bound to sinful deeds.

Kanae wrote alone 木曜日, 2月 01, 2007

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